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365 Day Project

Posted on January 11, 2010 - Filed Under self reflect

As I put on layers of clothing so as to endure the nippy weather and take the dog outside, I am distinctly aware of how quiet the world has been… how quiet my head has been. I didn’t realize how much the busy-ness in my head prevented me from sleeping, or feeling content, or hearing the house, or knowing that life is fine. I know that over the last year there have been desperate spurts of energy grasping for clarity and vibrating with energy, eager to find a sense of balance amidst life as I had been living it for the last 10 years. My sense of self, wildly pushing to be noticed more, and pushing to be relieved of a long list of worries, lost energies, and fears. I feel myself, after massive change, spreading out and feeling my toes, noticing how I move through the world, distinctly attending to life with a sense of joyful breath. I know I am not out of the water yet, but this is the year of learning, of attending to myself, of healing, of deciding direction and taking steps.

I headed outdoors and emerged from the warmth of our home into a world crystallized and sparkling, icicles hung from everywhere. Florida requires a lot water to keep our grasses green, and despite freezing temperatures, the sprinkler system continues it’s labor in the early morning hours. Our world was frozen in place; thin tendrils of gleaming ice hung from grass and palms, a brisk chill reminding me to breathe. I could hear the birds checking in with each other, and the sound of ice moving as they moved between branches and rattled leaves. It is a sound I have not heard in years, the sound of the gentle thaw of the world after being frozen. The sound of my being, thawing out, cool and fresh and somewhat foreign after a time of frozen hibernation.

From 365 Project

The new year brings some new ways to self explore. I have started a photo-blog with my sister Monica. She has suggested I (or I decided to be a copy-cat) work on a 365 Project, posting a photo daily. Along the way, I will be co-facilitating an Artist Way Workshop in early February for 8 weeks… something I have wanted to do for some time now but haven’t found the “space” to make it work. With that workshop a new commitment to writing and unblocking my inner muse… and hopefully finding my voice again for blogging. Hopefully, shaking off the icicles and continuing to thaw.


2 Responses to “365 Day Project”

  1. 67 Not Out on January 12th, 2010 3:58 pm

    Arrived here via fuelmyblog. Like the idea of your 365 day project, sounds like something special.
    Good luck,

  2. Life with Kaishon on January 28th, 2010 5:39 pm

    This picture is beautiful! I love it. So pretty. Good luck with your photo blog. I think people that do that are so exciting! : )