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Explorations of mind, paths, and life

The Secret Things I Think

Posted on May 12, 2018 - Filed Under adventure, feelings, gratitude, hudson river new york, JP, kid, mother's day, Parenting, self reflect, thoughts, travel | Comments Off on The Secret Things I Think

The Secret Things I Think… About my Son (Happy Mother’s Day to Me and all Mother’s of every nature – who understand the art of caring, loving, connecting, and nurturing) There are a lot of things that I think and feel about my kid that I rarely offer up to him. Some of that is an […]

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Not the Only One…

Posted on December 13, 2016 - Filed Under autobiography, feelings, poetry | Comments Off on Not the Only One…

I am not the only one with pain I am not the only one with a deep ache of loss I am not the only one I see yours there too It’s just that you deny yours so deeply I am drowning in the impenetrable Your watchful sideways glance Fearful That I might see The […]

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Confidence in the Mechanics

Posted on September 10, 2014 - Filed Under 2014, breathe, fear, feelings, frustration, gratitude, self reflect | 1 Comment

I am sitting in the dark in my Florida Room, listening to the rain pop on the ceiling and the storms moving through in waves above. The cicadas are warming up to the pause in the turbulence outside, and I am masticating again on the shifts and changes in my life. The door to the […]

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Twisted, Illogical Canvases

Posted on September 10, 2013 - Filed Under art, fear, feelings, healing | Comments Off on Twisted, Illogical Canvases

I am back to searching… in the midst of a twisted, illogical canvas, filled with color and direction that doesn’t find its place, I feel like I am missing something. I see a word… errand, errant, err… and I jump to my bedroom looking for the list. I pull down journals – days, months, years […]

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The Embrace

Posted on October 28, 2012 - Filed Under fear, feelings, self reflect | 2 Comments

I have been sitting on my writing for weeks, recording clips of thoughts on the long drives to Spring Hill, and ruminating on a concept or two. I am stuck in another cycle of avoidance, whose contagion has spread to my photography.  “Things” have been feeling profoundly more difficult, regardless of their form. Stressors have exacerbated what […]

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Gathering my Shoes

Posted on November 26, 2011 - Filed Under beach, fear, feelings, JP, memories, ocean, self concept, self reflect | 1 Comment

The avoidance detrimental, really. A quiet, shifty eyed, uncertainty sitting under my skin, under the happy and work, under the smile and respites on the beach or on long drives. Some things have hit a state of hibernation in my core, and I ask myself to bring them forward, but I think I am afraid […]

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Deep & Reverent

Posted on June 6, 2011 - Filed Under art therapy, feelings, healing, touch | 3 Comments

I was eating dinner alone tonight, took out my new gadget and hunkered down to READ (instead of watch figures move around on a screen or distract myself with a game of solitaire) and stumbled upon this blog post on Kindovermatter.com that spoke to me right down to my whispered breath and tears. The article […]

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Holding Spaces

Posted on March 10, 2011 - Filed Under beginnings, fear, feelings, gratitude, self reflect | 3 Comments

I find myself swimming in the waters of self doubt in the last week or so, uncertain about how much of it is me, how much of it is my monkey mind, how much of it is my inner critic, and how much of it is hormones. Either way, it feels a little dark, a […]

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Where She Sits Safe

Posted on November 23, 2010 - Filed Under art, crossroads, feelings, healing, imagery, journaling, trees | 2 Comments

Making sense of things isn’t always easy. I don’t have the perspective of all the other worlds, thoughts, or beliefs of others… yet it all has an impact on me. I would like to say that it doesn’t, but it does. Since I can’t control how others experience the world, or how I am perceived, […]

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Potential… Part II

Posted on November 1, 2010 - Filed Under beginnings, dream, fear, feelings, Uncategorized | Comments Off on Potential… Part II

A few weeks back, I felt as if I stood at a crossroads with blindfolds on – not knowing what direction to take, nor knowing what I really wanted. Then, a few nudges from a P3 weekend, and I came to see how much “fear” had me bound up and left me trembling. I followed […]

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