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Explorations of mind, paths, and life

At the Edge

Posted on May 29, 2009 - Filed Under self reflect | 6 Comments

I struggle to speak what I feel. For once, I am afraid to write, to say, to even acknowledge the vast amount of stuff I am feeling. I stick with what is safe and known, quietly burying it all, and I hate that I am doing that, but I fear more the lack of compassion […]

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Universe of Thought

Posted on May 24, 2009 - Filed Under self reflect | Leave a Comment

Words, they leak from me. They trickle from my pores as if I am steeped in a vast universe of language moving and shifting like a body of water. I struggle sometimes to gather them up, to find them and put them together, hold them just a moment before they slip from my mind and […]

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Mortality & Sand

Posted on May 24, 2009 - Filed Under self reflect | Leave a Comment

Life is curious, how it can start a day full of pleasure and satisfaction, and quickly twist to offer a different piece of reality and the awareness of how life is so short and fragile. We spent the morning near Del Mar and took to climbing down a cliff (barefoot – OH how I love […]

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Emergence & Distraction

Posted on May 22, 2009 - Filed Under self reflect | 1 Comment

It seems that a simple change can be a distraction to all the things piling up on my mind lately. And the infinite wisdom of the universe opens when ready. I was stunned by the simple symmetry – sunflowers are one of my favorites. Mom’s garden is full of them at all stages of emergence. […]

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Emerging Conspicuous

Posted on May 18, 2009 - Filed Under self reflect | 1 Comment

Orlando Fringe Festival was calling, so Gary and I attended an Adult Puppetry Event at the festival. Awesome event, and next year we will have to take it more seriously and attend much more of it. After the puppet show (One of Jim Henson’s Children performed a beautiful piece) we meandered up to the food […]

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Silently

Posted on May 18, 2009 - Filed Under self reflect | 1 Comment

SilentlyI carry itSilently… Captivating little flameBurning and blistering painful pleasureDancing on the tissue of beingBegging for my breath to speak it’s nameTugging at my maddening silence Silently I carryThrough the doubtUnending uncertainty of voices I loveBuilding walls to contain itLooking to me to make sense of it Silently I gaze, I hold, I try to […]

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Untangling

Posted on May 16, 2009 - Filed Under self reflect | 2 Comments

The untangling of my life from itself, and that of others, is painful and liberating.How is it that I got here?The journey a good one to this place.Yet the building of other emotions something unexpected…And the stroking of memories like the containment of artifacts in a wall, reminders of pain or hope. UntanglingSedentary feelingsLost and […]

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Citronella & Clouds

Posted on May 13, 2009 - Filed Under self reflect | 3 Comments

I have taken to sitting on the back upper deck of our place to write… later at night, when everyone is in bed, and the frogs are making up new harmonies over the quiet laguna tierna. Tonight is noisy. Aside from the chirping of the toads, there is a steady buzz of frogs and their […]

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Truth

Posted on May 7, 2009 - Filed Under self reflect | 3 Comments

The synchronicity of messages when you are on a life’s journey is fascinating when you are willing to take them in your hand and look at them. Monica just posted a recent find from a fortune cookie and I loved the message she claimed as the universe’s call to her. And despite the fact that […]

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Mental Health Day

Posted on May 6, 2009 - Filed Under self reflect | 1 Comment

I sit quietly now. Energy had been moving through me like freight trains of rose petals not an hour earlier. Now, I sit contemplative, my head cocked listening to the quiet remnants of what exists there but is so often quieted down. I am not sure what to do with it…. I listen…. “This is […]

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